I have always struggled maintaining a consistent weight, usually up or down 15 pounds in a year. I started Crossfit 3 years ago and was at a healthy weight and in what I considered good shape. The program helped me gain muscle so I didn’t even worry about the scale when I gained a few pounds. It wasn’t until about a year ago that weight (not muscle) began coming on and with it came frustration because I was working out at least 3 times a week. What I wasn’t doing was eating properly. But I have a knack of justifying things to myself, so I got angry and sad and started skipping the gym because in my mind it wasn’t working anyway. It was easier to make excuses, be lazy, and sit on the couch eating ice cream. My outlook had changed, my desire to workout was gone and I tried to shut everyone out and just feel sorry for myself. The one thing that hadn’t changed was my CFL family! The calls and texts never stopped, from asking if I was okay, to suck it up and get your butt back here. My coaches and friends said just come back, when my response was I am in such horrible shape I wouldn’t even survive the warm up, the reply was I’ll stay with you, modify whatever you need or we can just walk and talk. These people are not just coaches and business owners, they are family! They love their athletes, they pray over us, they listen to any concerns we have and will do whatever to make you comfortable while pushing you to be better and get stronger. I was thinking I would be judged for gaining so much weight and being gone for several months, I could not have been more wrong. I was welcomed back with so much love and support that I started looking forward to going to the gym again, but I also changed my nutrition drastically. I cut out all sodas; I normally drank 10 diet dr. peppers a day, and I stopped eating sweets. So now, just in time for my granddaughter’s arrival in a few weeks, I am almost back to my goal weight; no longer taking blood pressure medicine and feeling energized to get my gains back! I can’t thank everyone for their patience and love; you are all part of my heart.